Love Thyself!!

"Love yourself first and everything falls into line"

I was browsing net for an image of Love sign where a pop up blinked ........"Do You Love Yourself ? " Promp answer my mind gave was "Yes..Yes i Do love myself" .

People spent much time looking for the best spouse or romantic partner. But don't realise that their search is to fill the void or emptiness. Finding a good relationship with oneself seemed to be an even harder task!Learning to love yourself starts with making a conscious decision, an intention to become happy and lead a fulfilled life. When you do not love yourself and suffer from low self esteem, you can find that it impossible to ever reach the potential that you suspect you have.
Here are few things which i have read and followed to boost my self esteem and started loving myself more!!

1.Fall in love with yourself :Look in the mirror and fall in love with the reflection that is You.Learn to accept as you are,Love yourself for all the good that you see and accept your flaws .

2.Eliminate Self Criticism:Make an effort to stop the self criticism.Is there a little voice inside your head that often tells you that you are no good because you are stupid or make mistakes.Stop that voice right now.

3.Be Kind And Positive :When you start to think kindly and positively about yourself, the love you have for yourself just grows. Make it a habit to praise yourself everyday, while in the front of the mirror

4.Acknowledge Your Effort: It’s not always about winning or having success in everything that you do. Many times, it is the effort that counts! Acknowledge that you’ve done your best, even if you have failed to produce tangible results

5.Trust Yourself: Have confidence in your abilities. Know that you have the ability to make important changes for yourself, for as long as you put your heart to it.

6.Forgive Yourself: If you have made mistakes in the past that had caused you to feel less worthy, then you need to forgive yourself. All of us make mistakes; so there really is no need to beat yourself up over them.

7.Be Truthful To Yourself: Loving yourself requires you to be truthful about your own feelings. If you are happy, acknowledge the joy. If you are sad, acknowledge the sorrow. When you are truthful about your feelings, you do not try to lie to yourself

8.Make Positive Affirmations Everyday: Post affirmations that can help raise your self esteem everyday. For instance, say this to yourself “I love and accept myself completely and unconditionally.” Read your affirmations out loud several times a day.

10.Express Gratitude: Express gratitude for the person that you are. For instance, cultivate an appreciation for your strengths and gifts. Also, feel a sense of gratitude that you are alive and well, and fully capable of making a difference in your life.

11.Nurture Your Dreams: Why deny yourself your dreams? When you nurture your dreams, you would love the life that you are leading.

12.Take out time to Relax and Enjoy: Inject some fun into your life. Life is meant to be an enjoyable. Don’t take life or yourself too seriously. If you can think of life in this manner, you automatically relax and quit worrying over things that do not matter.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

The song i am merrily singing is ..............Leaving on a Jet plane don't know when i will be back again :))

Yes I am leaving back on this Friday back to mie home sweet home ..whoppie!!!

I'll keep posted!!

Cheers

Todays Forecast for Me!

Does an approaching date or event have you nervous?
There's no need to worry about your performance -- you're clearly entering rock-star territory, and folks are eager to see what you have to offer. They're more supportive than critical, though -- so expect a huge round of applause. Your performance won't disappoint, and the buzz will start. To keep the pressure from getting to you, grab some time by yourself today to conserve your energy and build your stamina.

Cool........

"I " Tag

I took this tag from Aditi's blog: I liked it so here it goes :

I am: Shruti!
I think: I can be a WWE champ
I know: I am loved by many .Don’t care about others.
I want : A new pair of sport shoes now :D
I have: all love and luck in my life.
I wish: I was not lazy while speaking to people
I hate: ppl who keep cribbing
I miss: the smell of sand in rainy season
I fear: Dark :(
I hear: Gossips
I smell: always good with Channel
I crave: for love
I search: wiki and Google for small things: D
I wonder: how some people make it happen while others see it while happening L
I regret: nothing
I love: to sleep and sleep ZZZZzzzzzzzzzz
I was not: expecting …………
I am not: a girlie girl types at all.
I cry: when I am ill.
I believe: in myself
I dance: to any tune mind..not on anyones tune ;0)
I sing: only when I am alone ;)
I read: the hoardings on road while driving.
I fight: for my rights
I write: few of good thoughts and deeds in a diary
I win: stupid fights with my friendsI lose: weight easily
I never: go out without my IPod and Earrings
I always: make sure to visit every profile on Orkut without any reason and season.
I confuse: myself while shopping
I listen: to you even when it dose not make sense!
I am scared: of dark again :(
I need: some money .Actually loaaaaaads of it: D
I am happy: when my ppl are happy
I imagine: myself in wonderland

Don't be santusht: Thoda aur wish karo!!

What do yu think when yu see someone well established in life at yur age? What one question that pops up within? Or rather let me put it this way..what whn yu see someone who has everthiing yu are aiming for?

Sometimes thoughts just keep pondering, pinching me to ask myself...what you want from yourself? Where do yu see yourself from now on...what next?

Everyday I get influenced by someone or other for that day and start thinking ..Can i be like him or her?

Till today I have at max aimed of

• A lovely house
• Owner of a great car
• All kinds of electronic gadgets at home
• Rooms customized for my indoor activities like playing guitar or probably drums
• And all MoNeY to support this....

These are my short term goals.Probably after meeting all this can satisfy me on materialistic stuff ...Probably not sure ;-)Because I believe one keeps growing only if he can think big and continously aim for it!!

Mumbai to Vancouver via HongKong!!

Dated: 10th May'08

My first International flight. All bags packed.Some last time panic . There I leave at 11.11 pm from Worli to Mumbai International airport.On the way realised forgot my IPOD :) called up my cousin to bring it and reach airport directly.Flight was schedule at 2:55 am which left at 5.00 am finally.Staying awake till 5:00am was never so easy coz the opportunity waiting at the doorsteps of the huge plane was indeed golden. The plane was huge, the window seat was comfortable. Ther was expected movie, song, entertainment stuff which i xplored when i gotup at 9:00am. In that sleep time i lost my breakfast.Now asking about for breakfast and she is saying its over :( nways had sandwich n juice which kept me busy till we landed aat most busy airport in Asia...yeah its HongKong.

Huge airport .Number of flights. Number of terminals and ofcourse crowded with ppl in hush bush. I got down from one flight and was serching the terminal for next flight though there was 3 hours still left.But as i had heard HK airport being huge its better to be alert.I got my way after boarded the train to the destined terminal. Don’t be amazed to imagine that the port was big enough that stations were connected by an express train .In the mean time i chked few stores and thought to myself "see now and buy later". Time went on and there i was standing in a constantly moving line for security chk for 40 minutes to reach the second flight.

Again a jumbo plane, same facilities but this time it had newer movies. So in a flight duration of 10 hours from Hong Kong to Vancouver I saw 4 movies, few FRIENDS episodes and Jungle book movie which i njoyed . Authentic Indian food for lunch was great! At times when looking out of the window, I could just feel flying above the clouds.View was awesome flying above Pacific Ocean. Ok ook back on earth ,Clearing the immigration check in Vancouver was a nightmare. I had to make an effort to stand in a kilometer long queue, with variety of languages penetrating the ears most of them being French and German. The heaviest task was to keep the eyelids lifted and on top maintain the cool for the immigration interview. Finally cleared it easily .Picked up my luggage and on my way to hotel.

Dragged my 32 kg baggs with the help of receptionist to my room.Tired... depressed ..No but the moment i sat on the bed started crying ...yes missinng my ppl :( After talking to my freinds went off to sleep.Got up at 10.00 pm then could'nt sleep for whole night. Now i got the idea of Jetlag :)

The new day began at 7.00am .............further more abt it later :))



Cheers

Shruti!!

I am back !!

Thats on the best ferry ride to Nanaimo Island
All set to do Bunjee jumping from height of 150 feet ..that was awesome ;)
On Canada day ..with few dancers from Paris !
Thrilling ride at the amusement park :)
On mie happy wala bday i.e 3rd Sep at 12.00 ;)

Hey guys ...after nearly four months time i am here to give yu some updates at my end

Few of pics uploaded above are from sometime spend here in Canada..

I had left for Vancouver on 10th May....four months gone n now another one month to go i guess..N i will be back to India...when i say m counting my days to come back..ppl wonder that m nt enjoying here..nothing like that ...i njoyed my stay here but i tell yu our home is best place on this earth ..nothing can beat tht:D

So what i did here in last forur months...noh it should be what i have learned here would be better way to present it ...

1.Cooking..though i njoy home cooked food..but neve said self cooked :D

2.Getting up early mornings..lol thats the last thing i will do in this world!

3.Laundry ..... in two weeks time..shit man i miss my maid a lot !!

4.Take care of my belongings ..

5.Last thing that happened was for good.....Learning to stay all ALone ...I m staying all alone in this 1 bhk flat where i had never stayed alone for a day bfore this .Initially it was depressing but now m enjoying it completely!!

As they say "Beautiful British Columbia", its indeed a beautiful place ...with a cosmo crowd of chinese, phillipinos, Desi Indians...sometime yu see so many desi yu feel like yu are sometwhere in India :D

Office has a pretty cool environment ... dressing is ultra casual which i loved the most!

Work is good n hectic for five days ..but weekends are fullon fun!

I guess i gave you only few top up on my end ...lot more to come in coming days !

till then cheers :)

My Apologies( Mez)

Sorry babes for nt replying to yur comments
bt m completely stuck ed up here with my work which is driving me nuts
me won't blog for another week or so
Will reply to yur comments as well as to yur post whn bck
Till thn cheers
TC!

iThink

All good things in life are either illegal, immoral, fattening, expensive or carcinogenic."

Before i die

Before i die
i need to fly
to touch the sky

before i die
i need to do one sin

before i die
i neeed to make Monie
to njoy it all Honey

before i die
i need to speak it
so i don't have qualm of dying with it.

before i die
I will be the QUEEN
To the king of my dream :)

Because I am TRULY MADLY DEEPLY in love with him

P.S : I was scribbling something on the tissue paper where just one thought came in What i wann do before i die ..n i came up with it within few minutes!You guys can also tell me what yu wann do before yu die... i know everyone within have something or the other ...told or untold.... things they wann do atleast once?
Cheers!!

...Busy Bee...

Now thats whtt ppl calling me busy bee... now

I know i have not updated my space from loong..Mez reminded me that again !!

My work these days really keeping me bsy.. no need to raise an eyebrow :D

Yes i do work at office not jst sipping coffees and going round the pool table.

Probably in a day or two yu can chk this space n i hope yu find better updates from me;)

till thn cheers

bubye!

Was waiting for this friday since last Monday :))

Whoopy!! Its Friday now!!

About Onsite and Offshore!

Damn!!
At 7.01 pm
Empty bay with few heads staring their screen.My manager sitting bang opposite to me.He shifted yesterday to this place .But seems hes not gonna get set for long there as cafeteria entrance is just behind his back .Shoo shaa is continuous. Waise it should not make any difference to him bcoz i hardly see him on his desk:)
Nways thing is my onsite is planned from last 6months ...jst planning hi chal rahi hai...which is making me nuts.The moment i think i should better quit n get an onsite from some new job, they trap me by giving some incentive, onsite talks n like a nutshell i m trapped.
Rite now this guy is telling me that he cannnot find my name in the database to raise a Online request for Visa.Gurr! Now WTF is that!
He is asking me "Shruti, did you raise the manual Visa Request?"
I said ..NO not yet , sitting there he asking the other guy(My team lead).
"Hey why didn't yu asked her to do it?"
"I will do it now.. Was bsy with some other stuff ( Busy with Shit)".
I tell yu i believe he might be an PCO operator before this job.Gosh on call 24*7 . He is a bachelor mind yu 30+.After looking at him yu get to knw why .Who cares!
I hope that my Visa get processed soon n i can fly by the month end.Let see.Keep yu posted!
bfn:)

I’m in a bad mood .I don’t know why. It just is. And that’s all.
I thought today i will stop working and update my blog.But it seems this ain't right time.

~~~ THE TALE OF A DATE ~~~

She is my first and the only love till this point. Her name is Nivedita, a software engineer by profession. She is turning twenty-four shortly and she is undoubtedly the most beautiful girl on earth. I made it a point to share my feelings today with her, hoping this letter would do it all. I have not written any letters in my life till now, and this is perhaps the first time I pen down my thoughts and expectations for the person I love the most on earth.

It’s been four years since we met each other and a strong bond has grown between us through these years. I was unaware of her love for a long time. In fact, I hadn’t spoken a word with her till about a year I had seen her for the first time. It was in one long journey in train, I understood her love for me. It happened a year ago.

It was a trip from Kanyakumari to Chennai in Kanyakumari Express. We had passed Vizhupuram and it was 3 am in the morning. I thought I was the only one who was awake in the whole compartment in that early hour. But to my surprise, she was also awake.
I didn’t know then that it was for me she had got up that early. Hardly had she seemed to move her sight away from me. She smiled at me very often and every time I encountered that cute smile, I started eagerly awaiting the next battle with her smile and shining eyes. Her smile had everything in it, the story of unbelievable affection, care and what not.

From that moment, till now, I too have loved her to a great extent. We have never exchanged words about the love we have towards each other, but words are too less to reflect the amount of affection and love we share. I have always thought that the love would remain throughout our life and it happened to be the same till three months back.

Vivek had come into my life three months back. In fact I myself had waited his arrival for quite a long time, but from the moment he arrived, he has been the worst enemy in my life. Nivedita and he had grown close over times, and the fraction of time she spent with me got lowered to a great extent. Even the latest Sensex fall would be less compared to the fall in her affection for me.
I have wondered how it could suddenly happen, after near to four long years of understanding and love amidst us. At times, I have felt like killing that guy Vivek, but I have not had that much strength or braveness to do that. Still, what can he do? He did no mistake to his part, except for being born charming, cute and fair.

Two days before when I saw her, she was feeding food to him and I was hurt to the core on seeing the incident. My anger had boiled down to tears, and I broke. It took almost close to three hours for me stop crying, I felt I had cried more than how much I would have cried when I was born.

I have been trying to understand where it all went wrong, but to my fortune, till now, I haven’t been able spot it out. Once for all, I decided to tell all my feelings to her, no matter how she is going to deal with it. I have heard my dad saying a lot of times ‘Something is better than nothing!’ and I made up my mind to do ‘something’.

I fixed today to be the ‘DATE’ for throwing open in front of her the ‘TALE’ of my pure love for her. I don’t know whether I will get a positive response from her, but I pray God that only the best happens.

Trrrrriinnnnnnggggg…

My school bell has rung. The lunch break is over. My ‘UKG’ classmates would be ready to welcome me with the same cute smile as ever.

I hope my ‘MOTHER’ Nivedita will be alright, understands me and shares some time with me also, apart from that she spends with my three months old rascal ‘BROTHER’ Vivek.

Morning i gt this Forward...n i smiled after reading!! hope yu too! njoy!!

"If I were any better, I would be twins!"

Job hunting

Every day getting up in the morning n finding no reason to go to office. That time i think i need change.But lack the know-how to change, may be afraid of leaving the security of a paycheck, or have a hundred excuses for why it’s okay to be so dissatisfied and stay at this job.
But now i think before looking for change i need to take a few steps to get the new career rolling:

Do some self-analysis. Ask myself -- What really matters to me? What problem or wrong would I like to fix? What do I enjoy? Where are my interests and hobbies? What are my priorities? What is my secret passion? What do I want to do with the rest of my life? Reviewing these questions can give me new insight to where I want to go.

Use my unique genius and talents. Every person is born with a unique set of natural abilities. Talents, such as managing, creating, researching, drawing, can all seem like easy work because one have a natural flair for them. True happiness comes from combining ones natural talents, developing and excelling in them, and working in a field, job, industry that one have a passionate interest in.

Others have done it and so can I. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that we can change if we really want to. Because since others have done it why can't I.


Finally Make a decision. Many people flounder for years and never turn their dreams into reality. They let themselves remain in a negative or stuck place. But i believe only action can change MY life. The only thing at stake is my own happiness. Finding meaning, passion and purpose every day to work is the wonderful reward, so now i won't wait any longer.All set to live a happier, more satisfying life............

So get set GO!

Krazzy 4 ME

Here goes few things about Me

Love about myself

1.I carry that "happy go lucky "nature

2.I make my decisions from heart being over genuinely good to many


3.Find it difficult to be mean/harsh to people

4.Love myself completely for whatever i am!

Change about myself

1.This over genuinely goodie goodie nature sometime kills me n my hopes.

2.Sometimes i expect a lot from others (Friends and family)

3.I want learn to speak my emotions to one and all

4.This mood swinging between minutes ....yes minutes need to be stopped.

Weird Things i wann Do

1.Run away all alone to some unknown place without informing any one

2.Dance in the middle of road

3.Wann do bungee jumping

4...........

P.S: Will add few more in coming days

Emotions

I want to say but don't want to speak.
I want to hear but don't want to listen.
I want to work but don't want to learn.
I want to be loved but don't want to love.
IS there any one or someone who can accept me as I am.

I don't know whats going in my mind.Want to speak bt gets
choked up...feels like i have lost
everything in one minute and second minute its normal.
Feels like crying out lound but can't.
M i gettign mad,..or emotions jst playing with me ..

Gather my Thoughts

This is my first blog for myself.I always thought to share my view,with someone but now i think its better that i keep it to myself and share it this way :)
There is composition which i wrote during my last year of engineering. Would love to use this space for my "Journey of Life"

Whom do I tell my deepest sorrow?
To the friends of past or tomorrow!
The ones of past have left me alone,
to find the way out of my OWN!

Some parted after marriage, some after job,
Even when they knew all my sob!
Though they left out of compulsions,
Never turn back fearing implications.

We left each other in the same tide,
But seems like God was on their side.
We walked on sands of time
Now I witness just footprints of mine

I don’t blame them for anything they do
Bcoz they had love me in the years gone through
I cherish those lovely days spend with them
With my eyes close and down the memory lane!

But one thing I have learned being a loner
Life is a process and no one is an Owner
We still live, laugh and fight.
No one can ever take that right.

Since life goes on and on
With friends coming and gone!
I have now learned to live with it
Express my love n sorrow with a pen equipped!


:)